Hues of Yellowish Blue

Waking up afresh on the wee hours of morning.Waking up to find the darkness creeping out.  It is like I were plunged into a mighty rush of crystal clear water. It felt like I was rejuvenating my soul,mind and body. Keeping myself tuned to the early morning song. The sounds of birdies in the air. The slumber of dogs and the occasional barks. The pouring and boiling water of a hot cuppa. A cuppa that has my spirits lifted up already.

A walk into the amazing gate of church that has heard my plea for peace and chaos filtered out. Singing hymns with a graceful heart and a sound soul. Leaving my little litters of agony there I head home. My mind feels clear.My heart soars ahead of my.What has happened to me? Am I in a tricky daze?No. I just feel calm after the storm and the storm which hasn't passed.It feels like a decade long battle already.And I know victory is going to be ours. Sometimes life was just meant to fog our hearts to get down to who we are? Is that the only way we can find ourselves? Is that the only way we can double up and stand stoic? 

Stoic I will not be but with a guarded mind and soul I will defend myself and to the world I belong. I will paint the colors of rainbow all the gloomy and sunny days of my life. I will turn my hues of blueness into oily shades of yellow. I will shade my blackness of life to a purple setting to stage my life. I will shun the browns and root out every worm . I will make room for the beautiful sunshine that will melt down my woes and lash out the plunderers. Those draconic plunderers who think my peace can be stolen? Who think I have no voice? My sunshine will lash them all out and win an already won battle. 

It'll be a song of peace after all the volcanic collapse. It will be a muted battle for the dumb and a violent battle for the atrocious. An eye for an eye. For my face is scathed showing another cheek for yet how many slaps,you tell me? An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind but now it will open eyes to truth and a sanctifying battle. A battle that just had to be fought.A battle that just had to be won!

Sunshine sweetness to ya all! :)

My kinda thing

And there, an hour and half ..V-day's over! :)

Day was normal. In fact chennai city hasn't hyped V-day all that much. I mean ,like publicly. Otherwise I'm sure it was a huge blast altogether for so many out there. 


I was rushing to the project center this morning with one of my favorite girlfriends when we spotted CCD and thought a yummy cuppa coffee could resurrect our cold spirits back to life .I mean this city was sleeping or what? No signs of Valentine fever in the air. Back in Mumbai , it used to be so damn obvious that it was a Valentine's day despite the ridiculous threatening of The Sena godfather that he'd marry any couple or rather any girl and guy let alone holding hands but walking together on the road in not a mandap but a freggin' police station!!LOL! The very thought makes me laugh to this day. I don't know why these old men instead should sit and ruminate over the thousand hunger striken people in the country go down to doing immature things like these making even a ten year old laugh(Oh yes,I witnessed the Sena Saga when I was 10!) 


Oh I remember the then famous and stunning building Akbarallys ripped down to not ashes but worse,it was in shambles. With all the glass pieces all over and bah.. what a sad sight it was! Only because it was gorgeously decorated with heart balloons and blah related to this love fest. It felt like a valuable person who meant a lot to so many a hearts came tumbling down so unexpectedly. Akbarallys was the hot spot of Mumbai back in the 90s .Of course there was Shopper's Stop and all that! 


Coming back to the point , the V-day festivity just surfed the air.And it was crystal clear nothing would stop them ,ever,from celebrating this sparkly thing called LOVE.

I mean it's another way of spreading happiness,correct but on the flip side,scaling the marketing gibberish to high ladders just to entice customers into making the someone special suddenly so SPECIAL on that one single day! It's a weird concept today. Infact it's ___(fill in with whatever you like!) when the essence of love is lost and all hope is washed away giving rise to a myriad other emotions of lusty men giving a piece of their souls to all this melodramatic superficial celebration. Yes, it looks like we are in a race for gifting whomever we want/like/love/lust the best gifts of the lot.


However ,HOWEVER people! All this does NOT stop us from celebrating the V-day with our kinda grace and magnitude. I mean ,you add a little conventional /classic style of making this day very customize-ably special. Say like making a hand-made card! Or something you did/made/cooked/baked.


I used to draw cards as a kid for my parents and my girlie valentines. It is a real tear jerking joke till date ,I mean,about me "making cards" .I used to write things like "you are my heart part!" or "i love you" or something downright funny-cute! And I wrote such stuff when I was just 5 or 7! Gosh, my bro found all those funny cards tucked away safely under layers & layers of papers in my cupboard ,the ones my friends gave me;those were even more laughable. It used to be so unique,you know! Once a friend made me a candle she made by herself! And another gifted me a card decorated with those crayon shavings which by the way is very creative;she drew me a crayon-shaves hut and a cute girl hoisting a balloon (guess that was me ;) 

God! I miss all those. I sometimes think I belong to the 40s or something. I'm too conventional when it comes to "my kinda expressing love" or "my kinda falling in love". This Valentine's I made a gorgeous video for my parents and for my favorite person! :) Yes, and I was complimented that the video gift was simply "priceless".What more could I ask for? :) I made they're day and mine too.What about you? How did you lavish on all your beloved? :)

Smile

The word Smile reminds me of:
1)The song Words from Boyzone that begins with "Smile, an everlasting smile ...." 
That is one hell of a song that sure makes everyone smile,doesn't it? :) 


2)My Mom's smile when I tell her something happy.She almost always smiles.Probably the most warm hearted person I've ever seen till date.
Moms are really the world's bestest people. I think if God never created Moms ,I don't know what I would've been today. :)


3)My Dad's smile when I tell him I've scored good grades or when I win some contest.
Dads make a daughter's world so colorful and supportive,don't you think? My dad used to support me everytime I got in trouble with back-answering my mom or did some mischief at school,ofcourse in a healthy way :) 


4) My Brother who used to call me "frown face" when I was a kid! 
I think that helped a lot during my growing days.That phrase used to remind me how often I get agitated over petty things. And how easily irritable I could become.


5) Smile..When that someone so special gives you without asking!
Life gives you that one person you'd rather do anything to retain they're smile and keep them safe in your arms for ever.


6)I'd recently gone visiting a Home for the run away kids.
And those girls. OMG! They're so mighty adorable. They are sent to private schools.Everything is looked after.They have few generous donors. It's amazing to see those girls circling around you with love & laughter in a few words of friendship you exchange with them. I think those are few things I'll never forget in life. When I left the Home, a small girl gave me a toffee and swiftly ran inside the house.Was that a token of love?Of happinesss? I was so touched. That's another post altogether. I smiled! :)


7)Reviving an almost broken Friendship.
It's funny how certain people ,when they become a part of your life,we don't realise how happy they make they're presence felt.The realization comes after they've ALMOST walked out your door.I grabbed that one final chance and made peace with a friend. I smiled. :) All the joys came  flooding through those empty spaces.


8)Angels on earth.
There are another set of people ,who walk into your life so untimely,that they're very existence saves you of having you carry all the burden yourself!


9)And there are few other friends ..
Who simply stand by you no matter what. Be it,during the storms of life or a sunshine peeping through.
This smile is for the few constant people in my life who never failed to make me SMILE! :)


10)There are those who's connections we forge are very short-lived ,yet it makes our day!
I make mine almost everyday.You Go ahead, make that connection today with someone new! I'm sure you'll smile!


In this post, I wanted to stress the importance of SMILE but ended up writing a list of what makes me smile in turn making me happy!


I read my list, re-read it. Re-re-read it. It made me SMILE! :)
 What about you? What's on your list of SMILES today?