Dreams-seeking The extraordinary

We all have dreams.Who doesn't? Someone wants to be a doctor ,an engineer,a software professional, a teacher, a dancer ,a whatever! I have my own dream. A dream that'll take me to places, to new people, to various cultures, mainly to reach out!

When I was a kid ,Mom used to dress me up all fancily and take me out playing.My younger aunt (mom's sister) used to get me clothes exported from London ,she was in imports/exports business then! So Mom used to deck me up well ,my curly hair dancing around.And me prancing around like an angelish devil.I used to be a real naughty kid,they say! I wanted be be an actress then , LOL!


 I know how funny that is. All those years growing up in the innocence and luxurious warmth of my parents & bro faded away my la Marilyn Monroe like life and I began to think maybe I should become a dancer.Being good at Bharathanatyam , I thought I'd be a good dance teacher. Then I thought nooo, not Bharathanatyam coz I shifted cities from Mumbai to Chennai since my dad was changing jobs so when in chennai I wanted to start from exactly where I left my dance in mumbai -those teachers in chennai refused! They said they'd teach me in their style right from the start.I was short of exploding till mom & I decided ..Chuck this! 

Then I wanted to learn Salsa and open my own dance school, you know aided by my husband and all that is in a decade from that time.I had all that planned.I was 15 then. My mom flatly refused;decided not to send me to those classes coz of her protective instincts.She felt more than actual dance happens at "those kinda" dance schools and never sent me! I was like,Fine!Chuck the dance school idea! I honestly never knew what to do with my life.You know there are few engineering students who fall into the category of knowing not what they are capable of-I was categorically under that! I did well in my engineering years,I am doing..present tense,but somehow my pursue of my "dreams" has not been fulfilled yet! 

My dad recruits people.My mom is an artist .She teaches at an international school and used to export paintings ,my bro is an IT professional,my sis in law is an HR but isn't working now. And me? I just want to be different.I've never wanted to be the same old engineering graduate alone. I'm going to be doing an MBA for sure ,you know a cushioning to where I can fall back whenever I feel I'm falling out on what I "REALLY want to do". But I don't know when this "something" is going to strike me and I'm going to feel "WOW! This is what I wanted all along!"

I want to create a niche for myself. I want to not conquer the world and play actress or a superwoman. I just want to be an ordinary woman seeking an extraordinary life in achieving my ambitions and dreams to the fullest. I want to flourish and be self -dependent. Being such woman of pride,I used to hate the very fact of asking help from anyone whom I knew too well,about anything! I used to try and try till I found out myself and then implement the same. Am I being ignorant or what? Whatever.But my heart will listen to no one. I do what I want.I speak what I should.I have a temper that scales it's own height when my mind is mentally thrown into a million pieces. And I shudder at the thought of any kind of insecurity.I want to marry . I want to have kids.I want to be a grandma.But I still want to be a glamorous grandma(;) and do NOT one soul did! I want to be different. An ordinary seeking the extraordinary.


What are your dreams? Tell me about it. :)