Gone into hiding

Helllloooo World! :)

Back after ten days of tiresome project work and those recommendation letters..Bla..What a week! I almost had to stay away from blogging to concentrate and stay a little disconnected. Sometimes ,staying disconnected gives you a calm ,doesn' it? Helps me get a grip over myself. I am in total charge of my situation...I don't feel the obsessive need to write a number of senseless or sensible posts. I just have the chance to work peacefully and give myself time to view my life where I stand in, right now.I can hardly believe it's been 10 days! Feels like it all rolled away in  a flash! 

And coming back just in time to check on what everyone is doing and not doing... it's a small break for me..this writing ..these outbursts help me on the long run. To keep away from the humdrum of my zealous sans doleful life.

Sans doleful. 
Yea right.
*my foot*


However,So glad to be here. :)
Phew,Finally!

My kinda thing

And there, an hour and half ..V-day's over! :)

Day was normal. In fact chennai city hasn't hyped V-day all that much. I mean ,like publicly. Otherwise I'm sure it was a huge blast altogether for so many out there. 


I was rushing to the project center this morning with one of my favorite girlfriends when we spotted CCD and thought a yummy cuppa coffee could resurrect our cold spirits back to life .I mean this city was sleeping or what? No signs of Valentine fever in the air. Back in Mumbai , it used to be so damn obvious that it was a Valentine's day despite the ridiculous threatening of The Sena godfather that he'd marry any couple or rather any girl and guy let alone holding hands but walking together on the road in not a mandap but a freggin' police station!!LOL! The very thought makes me laugh to this day. I don't know why these old men instead should sit and ruminate over the thousand hunger striken people in the country go down to doing immature things like these making even a ten year old laugh(Oh yes,I witnessed the Sena Saga when I was 10!) 


Oh I remember the then famous and stunning building Akbarallys ripped down to not ashes but worse,it was in shambles. With all the glass pieces all over and bah.. what a sad sight it was! Only because it was gorgeously decorated with heart balloons and blah related to this love fest. It felt like a valuable person who meant a lot to so many a hearts came tumbling down so unexpectedly. Akbarallys was the hot spot of Mumbai back in the 90s .Of course there was Shopper's Stop and all that! 


Coming back to the point , the V-day festivity just surfed the air.And it was crystal clear nothing would stop them ,ever,from celebrating this sparkly thing called LOVE.

I mean it's another way of spreading happiness,correct but on the flip side,scaling the marketing gibberish to high ladders just to entice customers into making the someone special suddenly so SPECIAL on that one single day! It's a weird concept today. Infact it's ___(fill in with whatever you like!) when the essence of love is lost and all hope is washed away giving rise to a myriad other emotions of lusty men giving a piece of their souls to all this melodramatic superficial celebration. Yes, it looks like we are in a race for gifting whomever we want/like/love/lust the best gifts of the lot.


However ,HOWEVER people! All this does NOT stop us from celebrating the V-day with our kinda grace and magnitude. I mean ,you add a little conventional /classic style of making this day very customize-ably special. Say like making a hand-made card! Or something you did/made/cooked/baked.


I used to draw cards as a kid for my parents and my girlie valentines. It is a real tear jerking joke till date ,I mean,about me "making cards" .I used to write things like "you are my heart part!" or "i love you" or something downright funny-cute! And I wrote such stuff when I was just 5 or 7! Gosh, my bro found all those funny cards tucked away safely under layers & layers of papers in my cupboard ,the ones my friends gave me;those were even more laughable. It used to be so unique,you know! Once a friend made me a candle she made by herself! And another gifted me a card decorated with those crayon shavings which by the way is very creative;she drew me a crayon-shaves hut and a cute girl hoisting a balloon (guess that was me ;) 

God! I miss all those. I sometimes think I belong to the 40s or something. I'm too conventional when it comes to "my kinda expressing love" or "my kinda falling in love". This Valentine's I made a gorgeous video for my parents and for my favorite person! :) Yes, and I was complimented that the video gift was simply "priceless".What more could I ask for? :) I made they're day and mine too.What about you? How did you lavish on all your beloved? :)

Patience Personified

Patience is the companion of Wisdom . -St.Augustin.


What do you think about patience? Isn't it another manifestation of love? I believe so. Patience has played a very crazy role in my life. Simply because I never thought I'd be those types.Being patient was an ordeal for me. Meaning,patience was never a word in my dictionary. It was traumatic to face the even disastrous consequences of it. Here are the reasons why;


1)It was hurting people around me.
2)Being a conscience driven person,I used to feel hopelessly miserable.

When I read about The Secret;The awakening began.And I couldn't think of perfecting myself in a more perfect situation of my life! I kept attracting thoughts on being quiet when people did /said things I didn't like. And not only the book , there were other positive
attributes new to my life that had this tremendous effect. Mom almost gave up, rebuking me for being so agressively impatient. 


Truth is...
1) You are ruining everybody's happiness around you by being a pest like that.
2)Your own peace of mind is lost. 


So,I always say a silent prayer for patience before hitting the bed. Because,lately I've experienced how rewarding it is when you are patient with people.It not only saves you of trouble but also helps people breathe. Giving them all the time they need to fit into that square of your expectation.


Also,I wanted to mention that, I never even wanted to post this in the first place for fear that
people would judge me. It so happens, I don't care about what anybody talks about me
behind my back or on my face regarding what I've become now or how I've changed.Because, I diligently visualised this change and it happened. And this I've acquired with a lot of
pain.Believe me , it's not so easy to go against the grain! It is arduous. It's like taming a wild
animal.It has it's baggage of tears, prayers and more. But when you've achieved it,There's
nothing like it,it feels you are on top of the world.,you feel like a halogen balloon floating in
mid air! I'm already receiving my gifts of patience.And the feeling is overwhelming. But I also
know , the sustenance is the most vital part. However, I know that I'll never let ME down. 


Gifts of love,again!